I'm currently under a lot of pressure at the moment and I'm struggling quite a bit with my mental health, so I would like an outsiders point of view.
Thing is, growing up my mum and step-dad (now broken up, and I don't see him any more) were not nice to me. I don't want to go into the details but it has and still is affecting me every day of my life. I had nothing, absolutely nothing.
Now I've grown up, I am actually very close with my mother. I know, though, that a lot of it was my step-dad, he was a disgusting, horrible person and he brought out the worst in everyone. She has been separated from my step-dad for some year now, but every day I remember another thing that happened during my childhood. It really gets to me and I find I'm starting to avoid her, which is a shame, because she is lovely.
At the moment, I'm getting annoyed because I had no opportunities as a child, (I really wanted to get into performing arts) and I had no support and was constantly being told thing that you shouldn't say to a child. I knocked my confidence then, and it's just got worse and worse and now I'm at one of the lowest points in my life. I don't have any confidence in myself, and I beat myself up about everything, all the time.
My question is, can I rebuild my confidence? And can I forgive and forget about my childhood?
