I graduated last year and have had a couple of short-lived jobs in gyms since. I've been unemployed since January.
I've always struggled with the concept of having to work ie having to do what others tell you for 8 hours a day of your life. I've dreamt of all sorts of alternatives but I can't seem to commit to much. My mum is funding me at the moment and I feel so ashamed about that. I feel like, at 23, I should be fending for myself like other people my age are, and now I'm meeting guys who are a few years older and have careers sorted, or maybe even mortgages, and it's really intimidating to me.
I want to set up a charity but the process is so confusing and long and I'm riddled with self-doubt about it and feel like I can't do it. I'm going to be volunteering two days a week to a charity starting next month, and plan to work on my stuff in the meantime, but obviously I won't be earning and I just feel so inadequate.
When the money runs out around March, I plan on getting a job with the charity I'll be volunteering for, and if my own stuff works out then great, but I think it'll take a while even if I can do it.
I dread the question 'so what do you do?' Honestly? I do a bit of charity stuff here and there but mostly I just procrastinate and feel paralysed and distract myself.
I went through school changing career plans every week and now I'm done with education and I'm as uncertain as ever. But mostly I just feel ashamed and like a waste of space.
