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HEARTBREAKING LOST 'CHEATING' LOVE ....

Postby Halflife » Fri Mar 17, 2017 1:00 pm

I am 43y male and met a beautiful, clever, wonderful 32y 2 years ago that 'got me' in a way no other woman had ever managed before. We shared magical times & both helped each other through similar difficult divorces.. I have a 5 year old daughter and went through a long and arduous legal process at huge emotional and financial cost to get access & now get alternate weekends and one pick up from school a week which I am happy with.

The problems started when I wasn't prepared to compromise my time with my little girl over my girlfriend. I matched our weekends with her children and it worked wonderfully but continual fighting, comparisons of affection, showing too much 'clinginess' to my daughter & fall outs resulted in swapping back the weekends. Don't get me wrong this girl meant the World to me but it seemed unnatural to not devote myself to being the best Dad I could be.. A result of this meant I continually pushed her away and months of falling out and getting back together. It scared me and I never gave her any indication of a future despite her concerns. (Home/marriage/kids!)

Three months ago I found out she had been cheating on me with an old boy friend when we were going through a rough patch & although I don't know what happened I am pretty sure they slept together. (She admitted it and then later retracted saying she was just telling me what I wanted to hear so we could move on!) We broke up for good but I just cannot get this girl out of my head and have returned looking for validation and to try and repair what we had but have simply resulted in hurting myself more... I know she is desperate to be loved and text's/calls me all the time telling me such and I so want to make it work because I fear I will never find that connection again or find a woman that get's me in a way she did..

I was always faithful to her despite her concerns that I was being unfaithful and after reading up about stuff realize she was very codependent insisting on being by her side all the time, keeping in touch via text and calls & frowning on any female interaction from my part. She cheated on her husband of 10 years with a married man (Who surprisingly didn't leave his wife for her!) to exit her marriage & physically assaulted me one time in a fit of jealous rage as I started getting along with my ex wife (So I could see my daughter more) I know she is a car crash & the future spells nothing but trouble but for 14 weeks now I have been stuck in a mental loop and going insane with it fearful that I will never meet anyone who 'got me' in the way she did & am scared of the future.

Here's the best bit....& she told me this! She was straight on Tinder during our last split and hooked up with a guy within 5 days and told me filthy intimate things that they did together. She called me 3 weeks ago to say she was going for a day out with him but didn't want to & she wanted me. Being a sucker and not wanting anyone else to have her I spent 3 days with her in a vain attempt to try and resolve everything (again!) & again due to me requesting she showed me dozens of intimate messages (some slutty!) shared with her and different men on Facebook & SnapChat. She said she has slept with 2 men since our split but I suspect 3-4! She also told me she had a sexual experience with one of her girl friends months ago! WTF

I know she's doing this to make me feel jealous and simply moving on with her life but I have completely lost my compass & sanity over this. Her social network is mainly male friends, has a colorful sexual past but has said to me if I can make that commitment she will agree to move away. close all her social media down and start a new fresh life with our girls.

I know what the correct answer is here & feel a little embarrassed even writing this. I have been ill the last three months since we split, lost weight, been unable to concentrate on my career or family despite looking after myself and doing all the right things.

I know I need to put distance between the two of us & focus on myself but I still keep getting these insane nagging doubts. I have deleted her from all social media but find myself driving past her house, taking routes home which I know she uses in the hope of just seeing here..

Feel a bit of a laughing stock even reading over what I have written but here goes...
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Re: HEARTBREAKING LOST 'CHEATING' LOVE ....

Postby Mrconfused74 » Fri Mar 17, 2017 7:15 pm

In short what you need to do is move on. Take time for yourself, and give your daughter some quality time.
I know how hard it is to walk away from someone that you feel is so special, but looking at what you've said, it doesn't feel as if she felt the same. Sleeping with guys isn't really the behaviour of a woman that wants to settle down. So ignore the messages and stop trying to see her. All you're doing is prolonging the pain, and making it harder to move on.
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