whats going on??

[maccadon]

Hey I posted a previous post regarding the situation, but i'll just quickly sum up- im basically a 17 year old girl who feels like she is obsessed with a 31 year old woman.
Anyway, the other night something happened which made me think that something that had seemed unattainable has suddenly become more realistic and I don't know what to think. I went to hers and we ended up getting drunk and some how or another we ended up getting it on (kind of). We didnt kiss or anything, but she took her top off and we sort of touched eachother and then both fell asleep. The next day we acted like normal and carried on talking about guys we think are hot and stuff. I am just very confused. I keep thinking about her and what happened. Is it normal for a 31 year old woman to behave like that to a 17 year old girl? And I don;t know whether I am gay? I don't like any other girls apart from her, and especially not girls my age. I want to have a boyfriend and tend to veer in that direction. How should I view the situation? I feel very muddled. Sometimes I think I just enjoy the wrongness of a situation, like I am being somehow subversive. But I am also insanely attracted to her!!!

[peecee]

Maddadon, I've added your post to your previous thread girl crush, because it will make it easier for people to understand your situation.