about posting something on here, kind of like really i should trust my family/friends enough to tell them how i really feel, but i usually when i post on here its about something small or that doesnt really matter, because i always feel a bit guilty i
know they'd judge me, they'd know how i really felt, which i hate so much, they always say i can talk to them about anything, but i just feel like i can't, its so hard for me to tell them things, i have no idea why i feel this way, i just do.
But im here to just get some things off my chest, im 14, i smoke


These are just some of the things i feel are wrong with me, im also very unhealthy, i eat the wrong food, im always coughing my guts up, i often feel a heaviness in my chest, like someone if pushing down on it, i have back problems, i can hardly stand up without yelping at the pain it causes.
Im not very popular, people are always shouting names at me, im friends with some not very nice people, who i only really hang around with so i don't end up alone, anyway they spread rumours i did drugs, which i dont, i know how terrible they are, but it really upsets me when people shout 'druggie' or come up to me and ask if i have any, again, i feel like crying.
Im really just stating the things that i don't really like about myself, i have a great family, i love them to bits, and some good friends, i wouldn't change my life, but i just think i need some advice on these little things im having problems with.
Even writing this i want to just exit this page, like this is just a waste of your time.
I feel better now i've said that, all of this was just going round and round in my head, stopping me from sleeping.
Anything you have to say is appreciated.
Thankyou x